Found out we are Pregnant again !!!

1/30/07

Yesterday was a shocking Day for me. Darin and I weren't trying for a baby just yet, however we did have plans to have a 5th baby. When I got pregnant with Zackariah I had thought this is it but when he was a few months old we both realized out Family wasn't complete and now wasn't the time we wanted to expand our family but we aren't always in control I believe he know what is best for us and would never give us more than we can handle. The Day we found out was shocking I had wondered for a few days if i could be pregnant cause I was having no signs of AF coming and I didn't know if my cycles were just messed up or If I was pregnant. I really didn't think I was pregnant but I was bumming out on every Valentines day commercial thinking I wouldn't have a good one cause I would be on my period boy was I wrong !! Last week I had a bit of a coughing spell that made me gag. I didn't think much of that it had happened back in August. I kept thinking about testing and then saying No pretty sure I get AF signs any day now. The night before I tested I had a dizy spell while going up and down the stairs but once again I didn't read anything into it cause I know if you read into every little thing you will always think you are pregnant. I went to bed the night before last peeing before I went to bed and then getting up 2 hours later to pee again and then by morning I had to pee again and when I woke up with that urge to pee I thought I would test just to see but I hoped I wasn't since it wasn't in the plans but since when to these little bundle of joy's follow the rules and plans. I went in the bathroom used the test set in down as I said to myself please just be one line. As I remember in the past when TTC praying for two lines. I started to read the directions as it say 3 minutes to confirm a negative I could see the one control line from across the bathroom as I walk up to the test to look at it closely and wipes the window clean I saw that second line right away. I said oh no I'm Pregnant. I ran out the bathroom to tell Darin he was in shocked didn't even know I was late and wondered how I knew I was pregnant I grab the test and said this is how !!! and he looks at it as if studying it then replies well the line is kind of light yes it was light but not as light as some I have seen and come on dude this is your 5th kid how many test have taken and how many lines have you looked at. and he agreed there was aline there for sure. A few hours laterI took a digital test and it came up Pregnant as well. My knees were shaking I was numb I couldn't believe it pregnant again already !!! I called all my closest friends and midwife and told them the news. My midwife was very excited for me we set up to see each other in February and gave my a non-offical due date of September 29, 2007 which was the day we tried to get Zackariah out but he also had other plans All my closest friends were very happy for us as well some of the people who we weren't as close to was a bit judgmental and shocked at the fact that we're having number five !!! We aren't the richest people in the world but our children are all gifts from god loved every much and very well cared for I know that we are wonderful parents who have been chosen by the one and only God to raise this child and because he knew we were fit to do this job and I can't wait to raise it and make him proud. I love this baby already I still can't believe this little one is inside of me growing and depending on me. I can't wait to see my body change and hold this child in my arms I am truly grateful for this chance God has given me.