Disclaimer : I am very happy it her birthday, but the other feeling I have are My feeling not everyone may understand them or agree with them, but they are mine and I'm entitled to them.
8/19/08
Today is Emmaleigh Birthday. As strange as it felt a year ago to hold her in my arms on this day knowing she still have almost 2 months to go it feels equally as strange that today is her birthday. It wasn't like I had hoped. It wasn't a pretty day my plans for the park didn't happen cause it rained all day. We have moved into our new house I am thrilled to be here, but we are no where near ready for her Birthday party so that has been put on hold for a month her party will be September 14, 2008 closer to her due date than her actually birthday not that I would perfer it then it just we need the extra time. Today she had her one year check up which went okay she is 16lbs 8 oz and 28.5 inches which is weird that her birthweight was 4lbs 8oz and 17. 5 inches. After the doctor we took her out of lunch I got a few smiles, but she would much rather nurse than have solid foods, she cried when we sang happy birthday, she would much rather be at home then in the strange play land. After lunch she was worn out so we came home so she could rest and nurse. I'm now just totally amazed that she actully a year it doesn't feel real. I have this bitter sweet feeling of remember back to her birth and how it turned out so different than I had hoped as today has as well. I feel somewhat of the same disappointment and happiness tied into one. It very hard to explain I am total thrilled to have this perfect amazing little girl in my life who has done so well for all the bumps she could have and has come along the way. Having her premature I never thought I make it a year nursing her, but here I am a year later still nursing her I am even happy to be one of the lucky ones who have made it a year with out a period that one thing Inever thought would happen. I am thrilled to have bought a house and have such a loving husband and father and 5 wonderful kids 3 boys and 2 girls I don't know that I could ask for a more perfect family I am a tad bit sad that she is my last little one to turn one. I am grateful to ever moment I have with her. I can't belive how wonderful she is. She makes us laugh so much. She is such a cuddled and loves to nurse and it such a wonderful bonding time, but she is starting to enjoy solids she will get on her knees and dance and beg like a puppy dog now it so cute and she hold her hand up and dance alot now and the faces she makes when trying new things is so funny. I guess what I am trying to say is I am truly bless to have such a wonderful baby girl in my life and that she pick me for a mommy happy Birthday baby girl !!
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8/22/08 6:02 PM | Permalink
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All the pics are great. Happy 1st b-day.#3 Comment from takenbytatted | Email takenbytatted
8/20/08 9:42 PM | Permalink
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awwww....she's so precious!!! Happy 1st Birthday!!!#2 Comment from jassypoohsmom1 | Email jassypoohsmom1
8/20/08 10:37 AM | Permalink
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aww hun i totally undrestand! i love her crown! I CANNOT CANNOT BELIEVE SHE IS ONE! ITS JUST WOW! HAPPY 1ST BIRTHDAY YOU BIG GIRL! SHES BEAUTIFUL AND GROWING SO WELL! YAY!! :)#1 Comment from onebusymama74 | Email onebusymama74
8/19/08 10:12 PM | Permalink
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Happy Birthday Emmaleigh! Can't believe how big she is. I am wondering how Daniel will react next month when I can start feeding him solids. Kinda makes me nervous. I love the nursing :)
